waiting to become ...

How long will I wait? How long will I wait for my vision to hit the page? How long will I wait for coffee shop conversations, video games, and someone to drive? It seems I will continue to search for myself, even after I have found myself. I know who I want to be, and I know that in some way the "who" is what I am now. I can taste it, because I’m as close as I have ever been to the day I become. Any closer and I would be what I have yet to become. Yet, I find myself trapped in what I was, and am, or what I never should have been, but what I had to be … waiting for who I am to be who I am in the moment. I need to become me.

ships under stars .

ride this hand to love and flat land,
and wrestle with the letting go
of all the things that I don’t know.
some ships sail so seek the things unseen.
sun stars and sand, follow flow and learn to lean.